List of Poetry that awaits this 2010 ...

  1. To See The World In a Grain of Sand by William Blake.
  2. Pied Beauty by Gerard Manley Hopkins
  3. God Grandeur by Gerard Manley Hopkins.
  4. Dulce et Decorum Est by Wilfred Owen
  5. The Soldier by Rupert Brooke
  6. Blackberry Eating by Galway Kinnell’s
  7. Resume by Dorothy Parker
  8. The Unknown Citizen by W.H. Auden
  9. The Passionate Shepherd to His Love by Christopher Marlowe
  10. Ode To The West Wind by Percy Bysshe Shelley
  11. Birches by Robert Frost
  12. Stopping By The Wood On a Snowy Evening by Robert Frost
  13. Mending Wall by Robert Frost
  14. Design by Robert Frost
  15. I Heard a Fly buzz when - I died by Emily Dickinson
  16. Success is counted sweetest by Emily Dickinson
  17. Because I could not stop for Death - by Emily Dickinson
  18. The Soul selects her own society - by Emily Dickinson
  19. The Waking by Theodore Roethke
  20. The Man He Killed by Thomas Hardy
  21. Ballard of Birmingham by Dudley Randall
  22. Morning Song by Sylvia Plath
  23. Porphyria’s Lover by Robert Browning
  24. My Last Duchess by Robert Browning
  25. La Belle Dame San Merci – A Ballad by John Keats
  26. Ode to a Grecian Urn by John Keats
  27. Ode To Autumn by John Keats
  28. Bright Star by John Keats
  29. Bonny Barbara Allan by Anonymous
  30. That Time of Year Thou Mayst In Me Behold by William Shakespeare
  31. My Mistress’s Eyes Are Nothing Like the Sun by William Shakespeare

P/S: How to EAT these poems???? OMG I stumbled the moment I saw the numbers....

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Sometimes Love Isn't Everything....

Someone once told me
That you have to choose
What you win or lose
You cant have everything
Don't you take chances
You might feel the pain
Don't you love in vain
Cause love won't set you free
I could stand by the side
And watch this life pass me by
So unhappy but safe as could be

So what if it hurts me
So what if I break down
So what if this world just throws me off the edge
My feet run out of ground
I gotta find my place
I wanna hear my sound
Don't care about other pain infront of me
Cause im just tryna be happy, yea
Just wanna be happy, yea

Holding on tightly
Just cant let it go
Just tryna play my role
Slowly diasappear, oooh
Well all these tears
They feel like they're the same
Just different faces, different names
Get me outta here
Well I can stand by the side
And watch this life pass me by
Pass me by

So any turns that i cant see
I'll count a stranger on this road
But don’t say victim
Don't say anything

So what if it hurts me
So what if I break down
So what if this world just throws me off the edge
My feet run out of ground
I gotta find my place
I wanna hear my sound
Don't care about all the pain infront of me
Cause I'm just tryna be happy
Just wanna be happy

Living alone can make us happy too

Leona Lewis

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Da Diary of a Diva Nanny...

NANNY? Maybe not so suitable la with me...
haha... Nanny doesn't wake up after all the kids woke up k...
But yeah... The works started by the time I woke up.. Gotta fold all the mattresses, comforters, tidy up the bed... All that a nanny a.k.a a maid would do lah... But hey.. I didn't grumble on this chores k... :-)

Shower times... Lucky that I only have to prepare two kids... Alia and Ashyraf coz Ainaa and Aimaan can take bath on their own... After I have groomed them... It's the time to fill up their tank... This was the easiest part... Put all the food in front of them and they'll eat quietly.. no worries... :-)

After that...
The part that I hate the most... To supervise them playing... Arghhh.... I am not yet ready to be a mother yet I supposed.... to hear them screaming and fighting over one stupid toys really pissed me off... They can't even play quietly... There are times that they seemed so close and click with each other... But it last very soon.. The moment I stepped away.. they started to pinch each other face, push the other one down.. Oh yeah, this happened to those 2-year-old Alia and 3-year-old Ashyraf...

But there are times when they can stay quietly... It was when they were watching TV together... ahaha... This time, I can go and fill up my own tank... hehe...

In the afternoon, after my Zohor prayer -I escape from giving them lunch... haha... My Aunt had taken care of it- gotta help Ainaa and Aimaan with they exercises... Maths, Science, English... I hentam semua.. hahaha... Another problem arised... The other two budak kecik will starts crying out for their own books and pencil... OMG... Lucky I have my Aunt.. that helped me 'taming them down'... muahahahhaha....

In the evening.. Once again... Gotta take those two kids to the shower... groomed them for their pyjamas... then... I go off for my Maghrib and Isya' while my Aunt feed them for dinner... It was almost 9.30 o'clock that I need to prepare their sleeping mattresses again... When they slept... I finally thought that I have two more serial drama to watch... hehe... It was an Indonesian sinetron and a Filipino telenovela..

1 a.m. = The Nanny had gone somewhere else... to the lala land... (dreaming about HIM)

This routines happened for 2 weeks... And today... Ainaa, Aimaan and Ashyraf went back to their house in Kapar, Klang... Pity my niece Alia.. She was left alone... No buddies to play and fight with anymore... When I heard her talking to Ainaa on the phone and ask her to come down to sleep with her, I felt a warm tear drops on my face... May she just doing fine and not get affected so much over this matter... Just don't want her to fall sick...

Taking them to bath outside the haus...

P.S: This is what happened when you get too attached to kids... I DON'T like this feeling...

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Is it wrong to live a Dream???

Why didn’t he approve my friend request in Facebook??? My heart pounds so fast when I saw his name appear on my feed.. When he approved others’ request… How I wish that I got the same opportunity too… But I know… I am nobody to have the chance… God gracious me… give me the strength to let go this frustration…

I am not gonna stop loving HIM… My sister did ask me last Friday… “Don’t you want to get married?” And my answer was… “I want to.. If the one that is gonna be my husband is HIM” I know this is crazy… Ridiculous and seems like I don’t know who am I… but I am just living my dream… Like it or not.. I am gonna live it… And never stop hoping that the day will come… Even if it’s not in this living world.. I’ll wait for him in heaven… InsyaAllah…

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Life at the suckest point...

I don't know what else am I supposed to say... Life is a total mess right now... I can't believe I just witnessed the fallacy of my loved one last two hours... OMG... why do I have to face this... When i thought that he could be standing so tall with their win tonight... They screwed up everything... They spoiled all the chances they were right in front their very eyes... World #1 became so tame upon the unseeded, the unknown, the scratch pair that came from nowhere...

I don't wanna blame nobody upon this matter... BUT... I just wanna blame myself... Maybe I didn't pray so hard... Maybe I didn't support them with all my heart... OR.. Maybe I'm just such an unlucky girl.. Who always bring them bad luck... I don't know...

This time I didn't feel like crying... Because I also don't know what am I feeling... All i know is that... MY LIFE IS A TOTAL MESS...

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1st Game of BWF Super Series Final...

9:45 am...
Dec 2nd 2009...
Stadium Tertutup Johor Bahru...

It was an all-Malaysian-affair...
I hate the fact that Koo Kien Keat and Tan Boon Heong lost to their usual sparring partner Mohd Fairuzizuan Tazari and Mohd Zakry Latif. But what to do... I guess there must be something not right... Maybe they were only taking this match as a warm-up... Hopefully, they'll win the next games... InsyaAllah...

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What about us???

Another story will happen...
Another heart will be broken...
Another history will be written...
What about me???

I will always be here...
Waiting for the feeling to unfold...
Reaching to something I couldn't hold...
Living a life that I wish I could control...
What about us???

Us will always be here...
In the blood that running through my veins...
In the heart that keeps on aching...
Because Us is only inside me...

Us is a dream that live inside so long...
Us is a desire that I never thought wrong...
A hope that will always stay strong...

A destiny that I wish had been written...
Will turn to me and say...
Both of you are a match that was made in Heaven...

11:26 p.m, December 1st 2009

p/s: this is a work of someone that has gone mad after being attacked by something called B.O.R.E.D.O.M!

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