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Guys and Girls...
I'm back again.. A week after my last post...
I'm here in a room...
A twin sharing room, a mattress and a single door small cupboard por mi...
My school name is SMK Pusat Penyelidikan Pertanian Tun Razak, Jerantut Pahang...
Yes, I am back to my hometown... ok... HOMETOWN... but so not hommy for me...
Well... I guess I gotta get used to this school...
An excellent Principal...
A good school..
An all malay school... from the students, to the teachers, the staffs as well as the canteen workers... (I'm exaggerating... they do have 2 Indian students..)
ALLAH...
I need you... wherever and whenever and whatever I'll be going, and I'll be doing later...
because without you... I am clueless... Helpless and Penniless... ALLAHUAKBAR!!!!
My oh My...
Only one week left...
Hanya seminggu...
DAMN.....
Time flies so fast...
Or.... I'm the one that move so slow???
REALITY...
1. I'll be called a GSST in a week time...
2. I'll probably have to stay on my own.... (alone or not... I don't know)
3. I'll have to live under the courtesy of my family... (Money, clothing, foods etc.) until I get my first salary which only God knows when..
4. I'll be having new students who are unlikely to be like my past students during my 3 months of practicum...
5. I'll be working officially under new people... I hardly knows anyone of them... I just hope that they are nice people... friendly and helpful... (amen...)
6. I might not be able to contact those who I am so close with now due to the business that we have to deal later on... (but please take note that I love you always...)
7. I will be crying when I eat alone early in the morning during Sahur and in the dusk during Berbuka puasa... (Oh no!! Ramadhan is coming.... I haven't finished replacing my puasa... )
8. I will have to be more efficient in managing my money... Getting my own paycheck I might be able to spend as much money I want w/o much worry about what others would say.. But hey.. Once my money finished... no one gonna gimme money anymore... (uwaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa T.T)
9. I'm gonna be away really away from ♡♥♡ Bubeau ♡♥♡ .... He'll be living on his own too... Earning his money... Forgetting me... (sob... sob.... T.T)
10. I might becoming a new person... Physically and Mentally.... InsyaAllah...
So peeps... All the best to all of us... in life, in work and in ♡♥♡....
Oh My God....
I guess I should never touch my hair again after this..
I'm so in rage...
I just don't know what should I do to make my hair longer again...
I don't wanna call the Nyonya at the Salon S***** or anything equivalent to that...
But I think she must have been so busy taking care of her crying baby that she become so senseless....
I am so shameful to look at my face without my 'tudung' on...
Erghhhh.....
Mari mentafsir mimpi.....
lol... hahaha....
my post in BAHASA??? (can la...)
nak kata I ingat rindukan dia sangat tu takde la pulak kn... but he keeps coming into my dreams...
Orang kata... kalau kita selalu dreamt of that somebody... it could be because of kita yang teringatkan dia... OR... that somebody yang maybe tengah rindukan kita... hahaha ♥ ♥ ♥ lah hati I dengar ni...
Malam tadi I mimpikan dia lagi.. haih... parah la camni... betul ke I sayang kat dia ni???
I also don't have the answer.... for the time being ye la kot... but in future??? when both of us are away of each other... will I still be missing him macam sekarang ni??? Only God have the answer....
I want you so badly, it's my biggest wish
I spent my time just thinkin thinkin thinkin bout you
every single day yes, i'm really missin' missin' you
and all those things we use to use to use to do
hey girl, wuz up, it use to be just me and you
i spent my time just thinkin thinkin thinkin bout you
every single day, yes i'm really missin missin you
and all those things we use to use to use to do
hey girl wuz up, wuz up, wuz up, wuz up
meet me halfway, right at the boarderline
that's where i'm gonna wait, for you
i'll be lookin out, night n'day
took my heart to the limit, and this is where i'll stay
I can't go any further then this
I want you so bad it's my only wish
girl,i travel round the world and even sail the seven seas
across the universe i go to other galexies
just tell me where you want, just tell me where you wanna to meet
i navigate myself myself to take me where you be
cause girl i want, i, i, i want you right now
i travel uptown (town) i travel downtown
i wanna to have you around (round) like every single day
i love you alway..way
can you meet me half way (I'll meet you halfway)
right at the boarderline
that's where i'm gonna wait, for you
i'll be lookin out, night n'day
took my heart to the limit, and this is where i'll stay
i can't go any further then this
i want you so bad it's my only wish
i can't go any further then this
i want you so bad it's my only wish
let's walk the bridge, to the other side
just you and I (just you and I)
i will fly, i'll fly the skies, for you and I (for you and I)
i will try, until i die, for you and i, for you and i, for for you and i,
for for you and i, for for you and i, for you and i
can you meet me half way (yup yup)
can you meet me half way (yup yup)
can you meet me half way (yup yup)
can you meet me half way (yup yup)
meet me half way, right at the boarderline
that's where i'm gonna wait, for you
i'll be lookin out, night n'day
took my heart to the limit, and this is where i'll stay
i can't go any further then this
i want you so bad it's my only wish
i can't go any further then this
I want you so bad it's my only wish
Saturday
July 3rd, 2010.
Posting oh posting...
Where are you???
Posting oh posting...
What should I do???
Posting oh posting...
People are going crazy because of you...
Posting oh posting...
When will we get to see you???
Posting oh posting...
You are just too good to true....
Hope that this issue will certainly be certain in these few days...
I just couldn't take this matter anymore...
Cause many of us are already going
CRAAAAZZZZYYYYYYYYY!!!
Saturday
July 3rd, 2010.
Love is back to me....
All of sudden....
After so long I've been waiting...
His name suddenly appear on my cell phone screen...
Hearing his voice throws away all the suspicions that he doesn't need me anymore...
I know that there are still sunshine for both of us at the end of the day....
Still a long way to go...
For now.. I am happy for this relationship...
You may not know how much I love you...
But all you need to know is that I care a lot about you....
Missing you my ♥ly BuBeau...
HAHAHA...
I Just found out these whole stocks of things to do...
Kinda interesting...
Just wanna share with those that might be in sorrow... (am I mocking myself???)
lol....
Anyway... check this cool link...
Friday
July 2nd, 2010.
It has been two weeks now...
I had finally left the 'student' title behind me...
How do I feel???
1. HAPPY - for now I am exactly got the total freedom from assignments, study, and having to follow rules set by those people.... hehehe..
2. EXCITED - I can't wait to see what's in store for my future... I can't wait to start getting my own money.. my own salary... yeah... SALARY people... not allowance anymore... (this is when you can spend your money without being monitored by others... lol :p)
3. SAD - I don't know what my life would be without my life-mates for 6 years.... Everybody is taking their own ways now... Don't know when are we going to see eachother again... CONVOCATION??? maybe... huhu~ (but that still a long way to go.... )
4. INDECISIVE - this is the hardest part that I hate the most... I hate to have this feeling... I hate to be indecisive in life.... I have reach to the point when I can't make up my mind.. to stay or to go... To hold on or to let go... To throw away or to keep it deep inside.... and it's about this love I had...
WELL.....
We never know what is in store for us next... all we can do is just pray hard that things will go as we wish...
Nobody's gonna paint our future if we don't do it ourselves... Get your life... Live it well... Grateful that you are still blessed to have your greatest treasure by yourside today... (Whoever or whatever it may be..)
Lotsa love...
Deeyah...