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EID MUBARAK everyone...
Supposed this day everyone would be very happy...
YES... ME??? I am happy that this is our winning day after a month of fasting...
BUT.... ME also feeling kinda sad that my eldest sis cannot celebrate raya with us this year...
not that she decided to celebrate it with her 'new' family, her in-laws... BUT... her husband was admitted to Hospital Kangar a night before raya... huhu~ and until today... she's still in Kangar... She couldn't taste the good taste of Lemang and Rendang... or eat the kuih raya that she ordered for so many boxes... And what make me even sad is that... I hardly even get a chance to apologize for all my wrongdoings... I know that she will always forgive me but come to think of it... I feel so sad for her... this should be her first raya as a wife, she should be happily celebrating Aidilfitri with her husband but she has to accompany him in the hospital... so big the trial that she has to face...
Enough with the sad part... Ya ya.. I am happy that this year.... I collect so many duit raya... Hopefully it can cover my expenditures for another month in that so-unwanted-to-be-described place... huhu~
And today...
I just came back from a roadtrip to Kuala Terangganu... Me, my second sis, my niece and my mom... We went there yesterday afternoon... Though at first, our trip supposed to be a trip to Port Dickson.. But due to some technical problem, we shifted our journey.. instead of going to the polluted sea of the west coast, we chose to please our eyes with the blue ocean of the lil' polluted and still clean ocean of the east coast... hehe :p...
Talking about the sea.... WE DIDN'T GO TO ANY BEACH AFTER ALL... just as what I mentioned above, we only pleased our eyes... All we do is go beraya and filled our stomach of multiple+variety of cuisines and dishes and juices... ?(thinking of it makes me go dizzy)
and today... i am super duper exhausted... don't know where the cars came from... our journey home took more than 7 hours... plus, i mistakenly told my sister to take the wrong exit from the highway that add up the minutes... arghh.... BUT before that... I was so pissed off with a group of rude young boys that didn't know how to Q and respect other people... I was lining up to place my order, and before me was another lady... and when I arrived this group of boys are already there, but they were just mingling at the counter and discussed of what to order and how much does it cost... I didn't mind about that, but what drove me mad was, right after the lady before me received her orders, they cross my line and place their order for more than five minutes and flirt with the cashier at the same time... I was speechless that I afraid I might spit at their faces at the moment... Thank ALLAH I was still calm and controlled then... I hope that I will never face these type of people again... I am afraid that I might not be so calm if that moment comes...
As what I stated in my status in Facebook... what disappointed me the most is that, someone broke his promise to me... I know, I shouldn't have trusted him in the 1st place... cuz, this is what happened when you think so much of that person and his sweet talk... arghhh.... WHATEVER.... I don't wanna think about this anymore right now.. Let it be, what it wanna be...
AND I AM UNHAPPY TOO BECAUSE AT THIS RAYA TIME, HE LOST AGAIN!!! What had happened??? ONLY GOD HAVE THE ANSWERS....
It's almost the end of Ramadhan... Tomorrow is the last day all of Muslims will be fasting for this year.... And after that is hari raya... I am so sad that this is the time for Ramadhan to leave... I am so sad that there was not much terawih that I can complete this year due to the terrible workloads and also tests.... Hopefully, I am still blessed with good health and long life to be able to complete next year Ramadhan with more good deeds and terawih... I want to wish all my Muslims friends, Selamat Hari Raya and Maaf Zahir Batin... I know I had done many wrongdoings to people.. forgive me... I wish that all of us can start anew... and to all my non-Muslims friends, happy holiday... see you guys after 9 days... XOXO...
SATURDAY
SEPTEMBER 5th, 2009...
15 Ramadhan 1430 H
1. I am alone in my room...
2. Just finished my washing...
3. My roommate isn't around...
4. All my other friends are sleeping...
BUT ME??? What am I to do???
These are all the things that bothering my mind now... and yes there is one more thing that i forgot to write...
5. I am missing HIM, HIM and HIM...
huhu~ so many HIM to be missed... But what to do... I'm missing all of them...
6. I miss my family too...
Yesterday my dad gave me a call and asked me whether I'm going back or not... I said NO... because there was no ticket to go back... He should know that I really want to go back... I really do... Now, I can feel that I don't have my heart with me... IT was everywhere... I gave them to my family, to HIM, HIM and HIM... I think I kind of made a mistake by giving away all my heart to them... I should save some part of it with me for me to be strong when I am away from them... Arghhhhh!!!
But I got to be strong... There is not many days left anymore for me to go back home once again... It's raya time... Now I start wondering whether all my baju raya are ready... hurmmm... Gotta give my mum a call later on... Can't wait to go back....
But here... THOUGH MY HEART ISN'T HERE WITH ME... But I have to prepare so many things... and works of course...
1. PBL assignment... still have no idea what to do... Ewan... Please lar give me
some idea...
2. 2 @ 3 TEST... Methodology, Methods and Materials... ARGHHH... and I haven't started any reading... lol....
3. PUBLIC SPEAKING??? DAMN!!! I don't have a topic yet for my persuasive speech...
S.O.S.... S.O.S.... S.O.S.... S.O.S.... S.O.S.... S.O.S.... S.O.S.... S.O.S.... S.O.S
I NEED HELP... I NEED MY HEART BACK... I HAVE TO COMPLETE ALL THE WORKS AND TESTS FIRST...
Hope that the world will move faster... I REALLY CAN'T WAIT TO BE HOME AGAIN...
And yes... I hope that it will be soon that it will be soon that I can meet him again... hehe :p
Till next time... XOXO...